Struggles and Waiting

Have you had that moment when you are in the middle of a storm.  The spiritual enemy is attacking you in nearly every direction he can.  You know the Lord is about to do something great with you, you can feel it.  You are just waiting to see the whole picture?  That is where I am at right now.  I think I have an idea of what he is placing on my heart.  I am just waiting to see the full extent of it.  Part of me is fearful.  I am afraid he wants me to open up about my past.  This is not something I do, ever.  I don't like the looks I get from other people when they hear everything I have been through.  So, for now, I am praying.  Praying for His guidance.  His wisdom.